Conquered my struggles and weight gain! Outfit Post

With this blog I have been somewhat hesitant to share too much personal information. Partially to keep some of my life private as well as unsure that people would really want to know. That being said this is a little more personal than usual but I am so happy and to be honest quite proud of myself.

After my mom passed away in April of 2010 I began a hard battle with a horrible bout of depression. It honestly seemed as though myself and my life were ripping apart at the seams and I couldn't hold it together. I new I needed help and with that I sought help from my family doctor who referred me to some others. I was however put on a strong dose of anti-depressants as well as sleeping aids as nighttime seemed to be the worst. I talked through my problems and issues and brought back up many things from the past. It seemed though that things would never go back to the way they were.

While dealing with the depression and being on the medication I gained weight. I guess its a well known fact that many anti-depressants have this terrible side effect but I could not afford to be off the medication as it was helping me through my struggles. The weight gain became its own struggle in and of itself. I was horrified that I had become the biggest I have ever been and I hated it.

Eventually I was able to lower the medication and stop taking the sleep aids. (The sleep aids were also another form of anti-depressants and are one of the worst for weight gain) I slowly started to regain my shape again. It looked as though my body was bloated with water. I hated getting dressed and looking at my clothes that no longer fit.

The jeans that I am wearing in this photo I have not been able to wear since June or July of 2010. I have not even attempted to try them on in the past 2 years as I knew they would not fit. They are the smallest pair of jeans I own and I kept them as a push to regain the body I had and lose the weight I had gained. Today for some reason I decided to try them on and was amazed as I slid them past my butt and was able to actually do them up.

So I can finally say I kicked the weights ass and have lost the weight I gained in about 5 months. I am so happy to finally be where I was (although maybe a tiny tiny bit bigger). I am going to try and lose a little more and putting those jeans on was the push to make me do so!

What I'm wearing:

Sunglasses - RayBan Wayfarer. Find them here.
Top - Flowy white tank by Vivienne Tam.
Jeans - American Eagle skinny jeans. Find similar here.
Bag - American Eagle Deux Lux grey purse. (purchased the other day from Winners so I couldn't find it online.
Shoes - Turquoise platform stilettos by Qupid.
Jewelry - 3 piece studded ring set from Forever21, Gold cross ring from Forever21.
Watch - Nixon in Small Player. Find it here.

Much Love!

I will love you til the end of time...Outfit Post...

Yesterday was absolutely gorgeous outside. During the day it was sunny and nice and warm but not too hot. (Perfect for having our windows open, we get quite the breeze through our house) As it got a little later in the day it cooled down to the perfect temperature. I could say perfect over and over in this post but thats what it was. After dinner we decided to go grab a coffee and have a little walk and I could not have asked for a better night.

What I'm wearing:

Sunglasses - Rayban Wayfarer.

Top - Basic grey tank from The Gap. 

Belt - Brown leather braided belt that came with a shirt I bought. 

Skirt - Nude maxi skirt by Cynthia Rowley.

Bag - Black leather envelope clutch made by myself. 

Ring - Gold bauble ring from H&M. 

Shoes - Silver flip flops from Aldo. 

Much Love and Happy Hump Day!!

Casual weekend...Outfit Post.

What I'm wearing:

Sunglasses - RayBan in Wayfarer.
Top - Sheer black tank from H&M.
Belt - Brown leather belt from Tommy Hilfiger. (ancient!)
Pants - Guess jeans.
Shoes - Brown leather wedge sandals from Aldo.
Ring - Bronze oversized metal ring from Forever21.
Bag - Coral clutch from Winners with gold details. I adore this bag so much. I think it has become my new favourite for summer. I am using it mostly as a clutch but it also came with an adorable dainty gold chain for a strap. When using the strap its so long it can be used as a crossbody bag which is perfect for little outings when I want to be hands free.

Much Love! 

That time of year again....Outfit Post....

I want to start off my apologizing for my sheer lack of posts in the past week. I don't recall if I mentioned it on here or not but it was my birthday on Tuesday. I swear it has felt non stop since Sunday Night and has not slowed down until today. Sunday night started with a birthday dinner at my parents house which was great! I honestly cannot recall what went on Monday except I got my birthday gift from my parents and hubby (Blackberry playbook, more to come on this later) I don't recall what else but it must have been busy as I didn't post a thing. Tuesday was the big day and the husband(were not officially married yet but after 6 years and a house together boyfriend doesn't seem appropriate) took the day off work so he could spend it with me. So we went out shopping and spent the day together which I adored. Following our little outing we had a couple friends over for another birthday dinner.

Even Wednesday was crazy busy with lots of running around. Which included the purchase of my new sticker for my car. I swear I walked out of the building and couldn't believe how fast you can lose $80. I will stop there as I hate this portion of owning a car. Other than that it was another glorious day. With the birthday celebrations done I am looking forward to relaxing and not eating anymore birthday cake!

What Im wearing:

Sunglasses - RayBan in Wayfarer.
Top - Flowy loose filigree skull tee. Birthday gift from the man. I am not at all sure where he picked this up, it has a name I have never heard of and when I ask where he got it of course he doesn't remember.
Pants - Silver jeans in Tuesday. Find them here.
Shoes - Black suede booties from Aldo.
Bag - Coach Madison op art sateen Maggie. Find it here.
Ring - Gold cross ring from Forever 21. (another birthday gift from the man and I adore it!)

Everybody knows that a broken heart is blind...Outfit Post...

It was terribly hot outside today to the point where it was hard to breath. Although it has cooled down a tiny bit tonight I cannot believe I decided to venture out in jeans. With the humidex it felt like 47 degrees! Don't get me wrong I love heat and love summer and it can stay as long as it likes but all I can say is wow. That being said I stayed very casual today with little to no accessories other than my two tiny silver bracelets (that I never really take off).

What I wore:

Sunglasses - Ray Ban in Cockpit.
Top - Navy blue cotton button up tank from RW&Co.
Bag - I found this cute little white clutch at the thrift store the other day, added a grey chevron pattern to it and Im in love. (tiny tutorial to come)
Pants - White skinny jeans from H&M.
Shoes - Brown leather sandal wedges from Aldo.

Title lyrics - The Black Keys - Little black submarine.

Laughter captured in a photo....Outfit post outtakes...

Summer, how much I love it I could honestly not even begin to describe. This year has been absolutely amazing so far. With so much time spent with friends and family in this beautiful weather I could not ask for anything more. Also I feel like such a little kid right now as I am counting down the days to my birthday, even know getting older is sometimes a little scary (mind you Im not that old lol) I enjoy my birthday each year. Not only is it usually a fun celebration but its a time to get together with the ones I love and have a blast! This being said 11 days til the big day. 

When going through the photos and editing I always find myself laughing at a lot of the photos that were taken. "What the heck am I doing there?" I try not to pose to much in my photos, I tend to feel more comfortable to just moving and walking around. When I pose, they look posed and I end up looking ridiculous. When I am just being myself they turn out so much better. (mind you not all) As you will see from these photos they also capture my true silly personality. It seems everytime I head out to take photos I end up laughing hysterically at something. So here are a few outtakes, and some that made it from previous outfit posts. 

See....What is going on in the above picture? I love being able to laugh at myself. (I think this may have been the aftermath of a huge bug landing on me)

Much Love...and Happy Friday!

It's empty in the valley of your heart. The sun, it rises slowly as you walk. (outfit post)

What Im wearing:

Sunglasses - A great go to pair of vogue oldies.
Top - Vivienne Tam white tank.
Bottoms - Coral skinny jeans. I bought these jeans this weekend and am in love with the colour of them!
Shoes - Colour splotch pumps by Naughty Monkey. I adore these heels, I love the bright colours and the little leather bow on the back.
Belt - My beloved brown leather belt by Tommy Hilfiger.
Bag - Black leather envelope clutch. I made this bag today and am so pleased at how it turned out. I have never made a bag before, nor have I sewn with leather so I was nervous. Pleasantly surprised at the end result.
Jewelry - Necklace - Gold leaf from Forever21. Ring - gold bauble from H&M.

Title lyrics - Mumford and Sons - The Cave.

Much Love...